Just recently, I realized my music taste had changed somewhat. I used to really really love alternative rock, Linkin Park, My Chemical Romance, Nickelback, Hoobastank etc. I still love them, but lately I've been listening to a lot of techno of various types. Postal Service, (all thanks to Chibiying) Tiesto, Lady Gaga. And finding a liking for softer, more relaxing tunes, like Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat's music.

Maybe my music taste had changed, I don't know. Then I started to ponder upon the topic of 'change'. I realized... that nothing stays the same. People change, emotions change, music taste could definitely change. Comparing myself to when I was in college, I changed quite a bit. The way I dress had changed, I used to like punk-styled clothes and hoodies, but lately I found myself going for the cute stuff instead. I used to wear sneakers and sandals, but now I wear 3 inch wedges. I used to survive only on 2 pairs of shoes, now 4 pairs doesn't seem enough! Just a couple months ago, I don't see myself moving out of this house until I got married, or moving in with a future boyfriend. (XD;) But now I'm entertaining the thought of moving out with Chibiying next year. I've never thought of having a cat before, (dog maybe yes) but now for some unknown reason I want one. D:

Then I started to noticed other people's changes. Relationship changes, interest changes, physical changes. Makes me realized that very much can change over (sometimes, very little) time.

Just last month, A childhood friend posted an old class photo on Facebook, it was taken 12 years ago when I was 12!! The memories!! XD Then through this simple act alone, (and people tagging each other) I reconnected with a bunch of old friends and classmates, some that I haven't even seen for 12 whole years!! And boy how much had changed since then, everyone looks so different now, I don't think I could recognize them if I saw them on the street! Some even got married and already have kids!! OMG WUHT??!!!?!

Everything change, but I believe that some things doesn't change as drastically as others. For me, feelings doesn't change as easily, my gaming taste haven't changed since I gave up RPG, (that was since college) my art style, though (hopefully) improved a little, haven't really changed much. I'm still money-minded. 8| I still love One Piece!

Maybe change is a good thing, it's a sign that we are slowly growing up. Although whether we are slowly maturing or de-maturing is debatable. XD;; But dude, I have far too many single friends. You guys, when are you going to find someone and get married??!

( The attendees of my Halloween party, and their costumes. Gure, I didn't know you were a man... )

I was dressed as the Spoon Murderer btw XDDD

Lately I don't seem to have alot of things to write here. Hence the temporary abandonment of my poor, dusty LJ, ahaha. *wipes dusts* Room still needs cleaning and refurbishing, I am still in need of money, I am still drawing, still watching House, watching Dexter and I am still designing logos.

( Speaking of which, here is another batch that is a bit... lackluster. )

Lately a lot of my chat topics revolve around relationships, falling in love, and deaths. Odd topics. But if I were to ever die young, I would want people to play this song at my funeral. I just think it's appropriate, you know? I really like the lyrics and the message it conveys, awesome video as well :) Besides, I don't want my funeral to be awfully gloomy, ahaha!

Here's hoping that I will have many more days to treasure, creating more memories, achieving my goals, and falling in love again.

Dad: *working on some wires behind the TV*
Dad: Hey look we got a new LCD TV!!
Me: Yeah, and it looks like the old 21 inch CRT I have in my room!

My dad has a sense of humour even in dire times.
Twas a dark night, and the lightning was fierce. Fierce enough to fry our trusty 29" CRT TV and our brand new wireless modem we bought earlier this month. My brother can't turn on his new desktop PC too (that was bought along with the modem) so they had to check if the lightning dealt any serious damage to it.

There goes my plan on swapping the 29 incher when/if my dad buys a new TV for the living room. :( And there goes my plans to play Godfather 2 on my Xbox in my room during the holidays too Q.Q Oh sky, you were very cruel to us lately!!

If you've been following my DA journals (which I think you don't o_o) my left eye abrasion broke all out open again and costs more to see the doctor this time compared to last, orz. (I fucking spent over RM500 for the abrasion already wtfffff) Doctor was worried about corneal erosion, but it doesn't seem to be that serious yet. However, from now on I had to be on strict eye lubrication for a few months until it completely healed. The doctor says it might take up to a year homg!! o_o But yah, I had to be on eye lubrication until my eye fully heals and retain back it's original working condition like my trusty right eye.

I have to apply artificial tears every 2 hours and use this lubrication gel on my eye before I go to bed. I wonder how much do they cost? Since I probably have to rely on them long term T__T (the artificial tears have to throw after open for 12 hours, the lubrication gel have to discard after opened for 1 month) Still not quite used to sleeping with one eye super damp though. Feels kinda itchy occassionally too. My eyelashes also feel wet and sticky all the time due to the eyedrops that I need to apply. But over the course of this ordeal I had learnt how to control myself from rubbing my eye even if it's irritating. Be gentle!

Seriously people, PRESSURE IS NOT GOOD FOR YOUR EYES!!!! Just blink and wash your eye with water when it's irritated.

My left eye power increased too, gaaaah!! Need new specs!! I almost forgot that I need to renew my road tax next month!! NOOOOOOooooooo!!!! More $$$ down the drain sobsobs... Positive thinking Kyou, positive thinking!! At least next month dates the final installment I need to pay for my car. ;-; New specs, car installment, road tax, new sports shoes.... WHERE IS MY NEXT PAY CHEQUE??!?!?! TAT Still need to work out the room layout with my dad... ugh.

Situation: I usually have "Show what I'm listening to" turned on when I'm on MSN at work.

iTunes: *plays Britney Spear's "Gimme More"
iTunes: *plays Nickelback's S.E.X

Chrys: Chrys approves of this musical selection, but is a little disturbed that it came after Britney Spears. XD
Me: XDD it's on random
Me: maybe my iTunes is feeling sexy
Chrys: Haha, hope it's not trying to tell you something, "Gimme More" "S.E.X." XDDDDDD
Me: ROFL XDDD be still my iTunes
Me: I am at work >__>
Me: I swear, music players have a mind of their own >_>
Chrys: They talk to us through our songs. >|

iTunes: *plays The All-American Reject's "Gives You Hell"

Me: ohnoes, it's saying it'll give me hell now!!! oAo
Chrys: LOL YOU NEEDED TO GIVE IT SEX, IT'S MAD NOW. >:
Me: H-how....??!! TAT
Chrys: ...I...I don't want to know. DX
Me: ROFL
Chrys: XD *hurting her sides trying not to laugh out loud* >w>
Chrys: Whoops, internet blip, but I'm gonna go to sleep anyway. XD have a good day, and I hope your iTunes calms down!

iTunes: *plays David Cook's "Come Back To Me"

Chrys: [LOL IT MISSES ME.]

iTunes: *plays Taylor Swift's "Tell Me Why"

I managed to go from mid 63 to 66 in WoW in just 3/4 day!! Woohoo!! 8) Finished Hellfire Peninsula (leveled from 59 to 64 there noshit!!) and finished Zangarmarsh from scratch after. Feels accomplished in that aspect, seeing that I haven't really been playing since a week before I go to Japan. *rusty* Though the super long rest bar helps too >__>;; Terokkar next!! Or maybe I should go directly to Nagrand? o3o

GTA4's next expansion : Ballad of Gay Tony is coming out in late October! So is Windows 7 oh dear. D: And Sims 3 expansion in November... Good thing they postponed Starcraft 2, holy crap! I would go poor so fast!!

On an unrelated note, this week is Henry Golding's last week hosting 8TV quickie. :( I am a sad panda. He is my favourite 8TV quickie host because he is soooo cute (and hawt) and has an adorable British accent ♥ I saw him by chance before at a Face to Face restaurant, he is soooooo HAWT HOMG!!!! DX I will miss him... :'( They better find a hotter and better host to replace him!! x(

Since coming back from Japan, I've been kind of in an art rut, instead I've been having alot of inspirations for logo design =w=;;
( Another batch of logo designs under cut )

The unethical con-man boss strikes again!! Remember the 20 reasons why you should never work for DNA post? Well, I have new points adding to it!

( More unbelievable bullshit under cut )

In conclusion, this ignites the RAGE in us so much, that I am DOWN in getting that fucking company pay us back the money that we so deserve!! Apparently EPF is suspecting Celine and Eugene to be lying and making up stories because it is just the 2 of them reporting. So we are trying to get all the DNA rejects together to make our report and file our complaint. I'm not sure how much help I will be though, since I'm pretty sure I left my last paycheck receipt/slip in the office when I was packing up to leave. So at most I have 2 paycheck slips as proof. I don't even have a contract -__-;; Sigh.

Now if only I could find my last 2 paycheck slips... >__> Remember the pictures I took of my room back then?? Well it looks like this now... There is also am empty bed where my brother used to sleep that is located right opposite this desk. It was empty earlier this year save for some pillows and stuff. But now it looks like this.... >__>;;

I NEED TO CLEAN UP!!!! AAAAAAAAHHH!!!!! I need new furniture... Thinking of getting a bed like this, like the one Gure used to have for my room. So I could have more storage space T_T;; The books I bought from Japan still don't have a place to put yet... as you could probably see in the picture with the bed...;;;

Finally, after a whole week and a little bit more, I finally finished the epic job of selecting and editing 300+ photos, uploading all of them, and typing the 12-page travel blog about it!! Every blog post averages 1000-1500 words too!! *exhausted* But I am glad that this is finally over XD;; That really took longer than I thought.. orz. Link to the blog!!!

http://gagdesu.wordpress.com/page/12/

Just click the "Next Entries" link at the bottom of the page to read it in chronicle order!! ^^ Warning, it is very image heavy!! (300+ photos in 12 posts!!) And hopefully my webhost can handle the traffic workload o.o Please forgive my grammar mistakes/typo errors because I am not going to bother going back to edit anymore if it is very minor =w=;;

Time to crash on the bed and not needing to worry about this anymore!!!

Today, I witness the biggest mistake a waiter could ever make, and it was highly amusing that it actually happened in Pasta Zanmai! I thought that place have better quality workers, hmm. Anyways, my dad had quite a few small winnings from Magnum 4D lately, so he wanted to treat us to some good Japanese food. So I took him to Pasta Zanmai since he haven't ate there before. We ordered 4 main dishes and 4 drinks. We gobbled up the food happily and asked for the bill, I didn't actually went through the receipt myself, but I was surprised how incredibly cheap it was, considering what we ordered. My dad didn't actually went through the list himself either, since he dunno the names of the dishes >__>;; We originally thought they forgotten to include the gratan or something, since we ordered that in the middle of the meal. So we completed the payment and walked out quietly. >.>;; After that I went through the receipt myself when we're walking to our next destination. It turned out... THE BILL WASN'T OUR'S LOLOLOL!!!!! There were too little items, and I definitely don't remember ordering any desserts XD;; Well, dad already paid, with credit card some more... so we just laugh it off as a joke, lol. Not sure what happened to our actual bill, and not sticking around Pasta Zanmai to see it either >__>;;

On a semi-related news, my agonizing tongue ulcer is killing my appetite as well as my sleep. =n=;; I woke up from my sleep 2 nights in a row because of the pain, argh! Yesterday night at 3am, I had to numb it with an anti-bacterial mouthwash. But I still have nightmares about ulcers after that, grah! The mouthwash is having a lasting numbing effect on the rest of my tongue though, it feels kinda weird when I was having lunch today D: Stupid ulcer is too far in and situated underneath the tongue, sometimes I wonder if the mouthwash even reached it...

I best go to sleep though, I need enough sleep for the ulcer to heal >__> Here's hoping I won't wake up from the pain again tonight.

Finally watched Transformers : Revenge of the Fallen yesterday. And to be honest, it really sucked compare to the first one :( Now I'm not saying I hate it, but I'm just not satisfied about how it turned out. I have to agree with Haru on the 'slut' factor, 95% of the girls in this movie (even the ones in posters) all looked like hookers. They all look so 'made up' and all of them are all oozing of sex. I still like Megan Fox though, although a lot of her sexy scenes were rather unnecessary XD; The first scene when she's on the bike = HAWT!! And they should probably just stop there. o_o There was also alot of dirty jokes/sexual innuendo in this movie, which reaaaaally downgraded the movie ALOT!! Made the movie so much cheaper -__-;;; Also, as much as I appreciate the human acting parts, there needs to be more transformers scenes too. And lesser amount of transformers please!! There were just too many transformers running around!! Too many unnamed Decepticons. Although, I like Jetfire :3 I think Jetfire had as much screen time as Optimus Prime, lol. XD

And wow, is it me or is Optimus Prime reaaaally extremely brutal in this movie??! In the last movie he was portrayed as a very self-righteous uhm... robot. However, in this movie it looked like all his attacks were meant to kill, even swearing in fights o__o;; Which, I'm not really comfortable with actually...;;;

Neways, I'd give this movie a 7/10 because it's still an enjoyable watch. I would probably watch it a 2nd time just to go with my family :3 My brother wants to watch it too.

( Before I close the entry, here's a 2nd logo collage )

I think I should stop designing new logos and start drawing instead tomorrow >.>;;;

Observe this historical moment, as I've been listed as a client's first choice in a Logo Tournament contest!!! *cries tears of joy* TvT Now observe how I'm going to be kicked off that position tomorrow, ROFL!! Clients can rank entries when the contest is still on-going, but the final winner is only chosen when the contest ended. So the end result may differ sometimes :)

On an unrelated note, I went Tun Hussein Onn National Eye Hospital yesterday for a reaaaaally irritating eye pain. Found out that I have an abrasion/scratch in my left cornea that's causing all the pain and irritation. Apparently there isn't any dusts or foreign objects in my eye, as I've suspected before. I ended up with a contact lens in my left eye only, to cushion/protect the scratch from blinking motions that may irritate it. I'm feeling better now, although I still don't like the feeling of having a contact lens in my left eye >.<;; The procedure I hate most when I went to see the specialist, was when they put it in my eye!! x( *doesn't wear contact lenses*

I also have 4 days medical leave! Woohoo!! Okay time to rest me eyes.

MY OLYMPUS DIGICAM IS FOUND!!!!!!!!!
So I actually misplaced it at my friend's house a couple weeks ago during a sleepover 8D;; No wonder I can't find it at my home lol!! So I'm going to go to her house next weekend (since this weekend I'm busy) to pick it up as well as sleepover again. 83 I'm glad that I found it and I didn't need to splurge anymore money to get a new one, since it's one of my major worries lately. But at the same time I am a bit sad that I can't get a new digicam. I really liked that Nikon L100... oh well, maybe I could still get it in the future when I have more money :3

On an unrelated note... ( I want to show these somewhere but not sure where to post. )

Ate durian 4 nights within 1 week, eep! o.o;;; I must drink more water!!

Edit: HOLY SHIT the client for Antonio Valente commented on my entry!! *A* I may have a chance!! Normally clients only comment on designs they like zooommmgggggggggwtfbbqqqqq

I recently lost my digicam, and I needed to get a new one somewhat urgently because I'm going to Japan in August!! It's a blasphemy to visit that place without a camera!! I was already tight with cash saving for the trip, then I realized that I still have some MSD stuff left behind that I almost forgotten about. So I decided to sell them to scrunch up a bit more cash for the new digicam.

( MSD items, wigs x2, outfits x1, mostly for girls though. )

Thank you for reading, and your help will be very much appreciated!! ♥

In... *counts* 3-4 months? I finally finished 4 seasons of House from the first episode!! Damn, I thought 4 seasons would last me longer than this... D: I guess 3 days of cramming/multi-tasking while I work on a freelance job really burnt through the episodes pretty fast. Especially when I developed a habit of watching a show while painting after that too. Overall comments? I think House has become my favourite TV series of all time now!! Beating Criminal Minds!! Favourite season is Season 3, although I think season 4 has a better finale!! So sad sobs. :'( Pea you have my season 1 dvd, watch it now!! DX

I NEED SEASON 5!!!!!! DX What am I gonna watch when I paint now?? ;__; Hmm, I think CBY has 24, maybe I can borrow from her while I wait to get House season 5... >__>

I went to Pyramid to survey and check out digicams yesterday, because I heard the Fotokem shop there has a promotion, which is a lie!! 8C The dude however, was pretty helpful. I'm currently in love with this camera!! It's a Nikon Coolpix L100, it looks like a mini DSLR, but it's actually a super-zoom compact camera! They let me try it out at the shop and I LOVE IT!!! Shoots macro wonderfully, clear photos even with my shaky hands, (which the photo usually turns out blurry 80% of the time) 15x zoom with clear results too!! I zoomed to the shop opposite the Fotokem shop and took a picture of it's interiors 8DD It's pretty easy to use too, unlike most of the coolpix series with a touchscreen LCD instead of your regular buttons! Now I find myself hoping that my Olympus wouldn't show up... until I get this baby at least >.>;; But the other side of me is mourning for my excessive expenses. I guess I just need to work harder with doing commissions :( NO NEW GAMES FOR ME UNTIL I FINISH ALL MY XBOX360 GAMES!!!! DX

AAAAAAH 40 days until JAPAN TRIP AAAAAAAAHHH!!!! And I haven't even got the visa yet, nor a luggage bag! NOR DO I HAVE A CAMERA!!!!! *PANICS*

Stop crapping out, Streamyx. That's an order.

This entry will be in the Malay language, it's not the first time I do this, but I guess occassional BM practice is good. >.>;;

( Teruskan kepada meme Melayu ini! )

Supposingly I got a B3 in SPM for BM LOL!!!

I must visit this cafe in Pavillion sometime SOON!!!! The food looks amazingly delicious 8Q___________ And I've been craving ice cream for a while already too. Believe it or not, I've never been to Pavillion, because it's such a pain to get to, being situated in the middle of the city without any public transport going there... =n=;; *refuses to drive in KL, esp the area around Pavillion* But finally I have a reason to go there ♥

Add that to the existing list of the RT pastry house and Cuppacake Cafe. Outing? People? ;u;

B-but... I'm not going anywhere with delicious food without a camera!! 8< My Olympus is still missing, and these few days I've been wanting to take pictures too. You won't appreciate it when you have it around, but when they're lost, only you'll realize how important they are... sobs. I don't know where I lost it, that's the problem -__- I just couldn't find it anywhere!! The last time I 100% remember seeing it was in Lina's house, although I am quite sure I brought it to the Pasta Zanmai outing too. Waaargh!!! I think I'll get a new one if by middle of next month it's still missing... *sigh* Thinking of getting the Nikon s60, although I'm not quite sure how good it is as of now. Need to do more research. Their ad campaign is hilarious though!! And slightly creepy XD;;

Body's condition - left knee still hurts, but got new symptom!! My left eye hurts too, like... it feels like I got something buried under my eyelids. It hurts like hell in the mornings when I woke up, just imaging a dust or hair in your eyes but 5x more painful. After a while it's not so painful anymore, although can still somewhat feel an irritation in the eye all day.

Good news is, my knee doesn't hurt today even after a full day of shopping yesterday!! Well, at least it didn't get worse, so I think I should be fine in Japan in 2 more months, if the knee pain is still there. Bad news is, the knee pain is still there.

Good news: I bought new shoes!!
Bad news: I think I lost my barely 2-year old Olympus digital camera. Couldn't find it anywhere.
Good news: I think I should get a new one, never really liked my Olympus much anyway. Nikon next?
Bad news: WHERE GOT MONEY TO GET??!?!?!! Not to mention I'll need a camera for the Japan trip.
Good news: I start work Monday.
Bad news: I start work Monday.
Good news: I have Illustrator!!
Bad news: I'm halfway done with House season 4. I need Season 5. :(
Good news: I want to draw more than I want to game o__O
Bad news: Nabari no ou... the newest book.... Q_____Q *crying rivers*
Good news: Nabari no ou fanart tiems?

So my laptop's Vista can run CS2 without much problems so far, Photoshop is fine. Problem is... Within the CS2... there is only Photoshop and Illustrator. Which means, no After Effects and Flash, which is the 2 other essential softwares for me. *facepalms* So I need to find After Effects 7.0 and... Macromedia Flash 8.0. I seem to be falling behind with software versions instead of moving forward aren't I? XD;; CS3 and CS4 wouldn't work on my Vista, and I have no idea why. Apparently my CS3 'called home' which is a new feature with the CS3 and above versions. Adobe detected that my softwares are not original and they killed them. There is a crack that actually prevents CS3 from 'calling home' but I guess not cracking Illustrator back then was a bad move. *sigh*

I'm considering reformatting and reinstalling my Vista, just to make sure I kill off CS3 and CS4 remnants permanently, just to try and use CS4 properly. But I'm not sure if it's a wise move or not. Or should I just kill off Vista and install XP instead? Although that would risk not being able to find proper drivers for my laptop's various hardwares. One thing about being a designer like me is that I need to be updated with these softwares, especially Flash and After Effects.

Maybe I should just kill off Vista since it's giving me so much problems. Lately Firefox had been hanging for no reason when I'm trying to save or print files via the Vista dialogue. Not sure what's wrong there. e.e;; Maybe later I'll dual-OS XP and Windows 7 if it's any good. Windows 7 just to run games, ehehehe.

Now I just need to find Illustrator CS2, AE 7.0 and Flash 8.0. Anyone of you guys have those installers? >__> Illustrator especially, I need that somewhat urgently.

For the last few days, my concentration were largely focused on a freelance job provided by a friend and marathoning House episodes. The job is due in 7 hours time, and I probably just need 2 more hours or 2 more House episodes to finish it. Yey for being early for once!! o/ I've also sped through the latter half of House season 2 and speeding through season 3 now XD; House is awesome!!

The good news is, I've recovered from my Gastritis and stomach problems! But the bad news is my knee problem is getting worse. I need to constantly stretch or move it, if I keep it bent for a long period of time, like say, when I'm stuck eating in a cafe or restaurant that doesn't have alot of leg space under the table, my knee would feel like it's gonna snap off when I stand. Just mild annoyance when I walk though. I'm suspecting a ligament injury, but I can't recall when exactly did I injured it... =n=;; Probably going to see a Dr later this week if it persists.

I conclude this entry with a meme that I've probably done before. But I really need a break from my work and House XD;

( Cut so it wouldn't become a wall of text )